#sorry if this wasn't as indepth as you wanted

[daily-ethoslab]

question from a daily account to another. have you ever thought about quitting?? is there a way to get through it?? do you just have to keep drawing?? haha. ive been running mine for like a year and my brains giving out a bit :P

Yes I have! usually it's on the days where my mental health usually isn't the best to begin with. As for advice on how to get through it? it's hard to say. There could be 100's of reasons why it's not fun to draw the same subject over and over anymore.

It's hard for me to know the difference if I'm tired of drawing etho everyday or if I'm just mentally exhausted.

When ever I feel like quitting I ask myself these questions:

- Are you growing resentment twords something you used to enjoy?

- Are you still interested in the thing you are drawing?

- Can you imagine yourself doing this for another year? What if you get busy?

I also try to think about what really motivated me to keep drawing. If the ONLY thing that I'm enjoying about this process is people saying nice things about my art then I'm not going to enjoy it at all because not everyone will say something nice, not everyone will consistantly comment on your posts.

What keeps me motivated is well yes partly the nice comments but also I think this is an amazing art challange that keeps me on my toes. (also I love etho but I think that's obvious)

in the end if you don't wanna do it DONT force yourself. Skip days, get someone to cover you, take a break. You as a person and your mental health are so much more important then keeping up with a daily blog <3

[dazaiandhislovelybandages]

hii~ i hope you’re having a good day/night! i was wondering if you could do Mu Qing from TGCF with the prompt #16. "Don't ever say that name again"? idk why but i can definitely see him being a petty and jealous significant other (gn reader if can please) thank youu <3

A Tiny Bit Of Jealousy {Mu Qing}

A/n: thank you for requesting and I hope you like the outcome. I just wanted to say that a) I am lowkey loving this coloured layout since the photo is for the tgcf manhua and b) I am still three books in tgcf so I am incredibly sorry if this isn't an indepth writing or if his character isn't fully accurate

Pairing: Mu Qing x gn!reader

Trigger warnings: jealousy

You never realised how and when you got in a relationship with Mu Qing and there had been times when you couldn't help but wonder and question the circumstances under which the relationship came to exist. Not in a bad way of course, never in a bad way. But when originally you thought Mu Qing was just not ready to open up to you yet, as the months and years passed by, you realised that he wasn't hiding anything from you.

It was on odd feeling, being with him. After meeting Xie Lian and Hua Cheng and witnessing some parts of their relationship you could say with great certainty that he wasn't as open with you as those two were with each other. He wasn't neglecting you but he wasn't all touchy either. He was just there and if you happened to want cuddles or kisses, you would have to ask.

On that note, he wasn't bad at picking up signs, especially when it came to you. He knew your reactions -he could predict them even-, your likes, your dislikes, your routine. He knew everything because you were open with him. And it went without saying that when it came to you, Mu Qing was an excellent listener. He could sit down and listen to you mumble about the latest gossip in the Heavenly Realm for hours. Did he care? No. But you were the one talking so he would listen to you even if his ears somehow disappear.

Naturally, he also knew every single one of your friends in the Heavenly Realm; and the ones you didn't like that much.

And god he was jealous.

He was jealous of a very few selected people but not in the toxic way. He would never try and get you away from them since he knew that their and your intentions were pure but he couldn't help but envy the fact that they could give you something he thought he couldn't: a good and fun time.

In his mind, Mu Qing thought he was boring you and perhaps that was the only thing he had never been honest with you about. He could never easily laugh, express his feelings without being asked and most of the time he was a little too focused on his work.

And then the day he begged and prayed not to come actually came. He saw you laughing with another god. Now, on the surface there was nothing wrong with it. He had seen you laugh at something another god or goddess had said a million times and it never bothered him.

But this god was Feng Xin.

"Hey!" Your melodic voice echoed around the room as you walked through the pink silk curtains. You didn't have to ask, it was as clear as day that there was something wrong with him. And you didn't have to ask what was wrong either since when the two of you started dating you made a silent agreement: Mu Qing would always tell you in his own time what was wrong.

"Hello." He responded gruffly.

"I just came to check in since I have to do some paperwork." You walked up to him and placed a soft kiss on his cheek; a kiss to which he didn't react. "Oh! Feng Xin-"

"Don't ever say that name again!"

His tone was harsh and angry but he didn't raise his voice. Him pulling away was enough to realise that most probably you had said something wrong.

"We'll talk later," was all you said and walked away.

Mu Qing sighed and sat back down at the soft pillow on the floor, closing his eyes. You hadn't done anything wrong, that small part of his brain that could think clearly said so. Laughing and talking with Feng Xin was okay. Not once had Mu Qing thought about controlling you and he would rather die than do it. But it felt like a betrayal of some kind. You knew about his bad relationship with Feng Xin so why on earth did you have to bring him up?

Though if he had to be completely honest with himself... it wasn't the fact that he and Feng Xin were practically enemies that made him angry. It was the fact that not once had he made you laugh like that. He wanted to hear that unique sound he had never heard before once again with all his heart but he didn't want it if he wasn't the one causing it. What good was a partner who didn't make you laugh with all your heart?

"I am sorry," he whispered. He had gathered the courage and later that day, at night to be precise, he had walked all the way to your palace just to apologise. You didn't deserve someone who was as petty as him and he knew it but he needed you.

"I know," you whispered back and took that one step, closing the distance between the two of you with a hug. "You always say things you don't mean when you're angry."

In an ideal world, he would have preferred it if you didn't comment on it. But you did and the truth hurt a little but he deserved it.

Gently, he wrapped his arms around you and placed a soft kiss on your temple. "Should I make up for it? What did that bastard want?"

"You know... I am pretty sure that if I tell you, you'll get angry again."

[cocomintcat]

Hazbin Hotel x Seraph! Reader (platonic)

Info and get to know her

My first small oc idea that I'm making an x reader type deal! Info:

Reader: angel name Eliora, fallen name (y/n) || 150 years old? (aka 15 in human years ?? I'm guessing cuz Charlie presents like a 20 year old while being 200+ ) aka child seraph that is smaller than emily and around a few inches shorter than lucifer || blended Blush on the cheeks and nose, little heart nose

Angel form looks: gold halos around her neck, wrists and ankles along with above her head, eye on her collarbone area and one on the back of her hands, pastel/soft colors for this form, dress is a flowy yet comfortable gown with ballet flats || 6 wings from her head, can transfer them to be bigger wings on her back

Fallen: horns sprout from her forhead like Charlie and lucifer (because she's not acclimated properly to hell she can't hide them) || her gold halos are now black and slightly broken/bent) || she now has a heart tipped demon tail || more red colors but still light, colors darken with anger/negative emotions || main outfit is an sweetheart topped a-line dress with a black headpiece with an attached veil (your imagination to what you want the headpiece to be), for shoes she has simple black heels over some black tights || has both set of her wings (head and back) showing most of the time, her head wings act like ears now moving to her emotions

More notes: sweet, innocent but not necessarily naive (she knows things but is more innocent as inexperienced), shy, kind, sometimes there's not a thought behind those eyes (innocent puppy look), affectionate, can fight only to protect others, She is aroace (because I am and I said so)

Likes: chocolate, Saf, animals, Lucifer and Charlie, red and purple, lemon rasberry soda, hugs, seeing those she cares for happy

Dislikes: cruelty, unfair punishment, pure evil, the dark, being alone, the cold, others crying, herself crying in front of others, burdening others

Readers angel pet: a small seraph (just an eye with wings, basically acts like a bird + a puppy) named Saf (short name for a small seraph, get it, I'm not sorry)

Eliora is known as God's little princess, she's favored among the elders as she is very innocent, Adam likes her too (takes on older brother role). Though everyone thinks she's too sympathetic towards sinners and hellborns (alongside lucifer).

The fall, it wasn't really a fall as much as it was banishment. She got wrongly accused by a jealous winner who wanted to rise in ranks, she befriended Eliora only to betray her and frame her. Unfortunately no one believed Eliora's innocence even with proof that she was (fearing she had become too much like lucifer). She was banished to hell, she can't become too demonic since her sin wasn't true nor actually done that's why it lightly affects her appearance but the longer in hell she is her body will change to adjust.

When she was sent, Lucifer witnessed it, immediately taking her under his wing. He gave her the name (y/n) to help her try to move on. After a while of taking care of her he let's Charlie know of her existence. Of course this becomes found family and well you get it... It's a new adventure of reader joining the Magnes family to bring sinners to redemption!!

I'll do a more indepth Prologue but for know this is your summary and info to know!!

Spoiler-ish but the dynamics I plan:

Heaven

Adam- older brother

God- "bio" dad type feel (daddy issues anyone)

Lute- kinda mean cousin but cares deeply about you

Sarah- motherly friend

Emily- 100% big sister vibes

Bia (bee-uh) treh (tre-ey)- BFF (not for long)

Hell

Lucifer- adoptive dad that made everything better (actually her brother but acts more like a dad to her)

Charlie- she adopted (y/n) no choices allowed you are her sister now anyone who hurts you gets a first or second death (she's also technically ur niece but is that really a big deal?)

Vaggie- sister in law to the rescue (she knew you in heaven and is pissed for you)

Angel dust- big brother (he treats you like Molly ain't gonna let anyone forcefully take your innocents)

Husker- same as angel but more of a 2nd father figure (he got claws that he will use)

Alastor- weird uncle that becomes like a distant father figure (he trying to avoid soft spots but it seem you happen to remind him a bit of his mother [in the loving kindness sense])

Sir pentious- Weird cousin that is also weirdly a younger siblings that's actually older than you (immature older person with mature and caring younger)

Nifty- she is like a young aunt that acts like your older sister in a weird way and we love it

Rosie- Mom (need I say more lol)

Cherrybomb- your her Lil sister and she is going to bring you into all the chaos

(That's all I can remember atm I'll add more later)

Hopefully I feel motivated to do the prologue and parts soon (struggling rn)

[lanawinterscigarettes]

I Love You (Georgina Sparks x gn reader)

Summary: your brief fling turns into something more

Warnings: implied/referenced sex, friends with benefits to lovers, some angst, happy ending

A/N: this is just something really short I came up with because I wanted to write something with georgina. hope y'all like it <3

It wasn't supposed to turn into anything substanial, what was going on between you. It was sex, not love. Georgina didn't believe in love, and she certainly didn't believe in mixing the two.

But you were so sweet to her, so kind. You knew what kind of a person she was, obviously. You knew that she was awful and wicked and cruel. It was certainly no mystery as to why she didn't have any friends.

She thought that she could use it to her advantage, her cruelty. She thought if she was awful to you like she was to everyone else, she could scare you off. But it didn't work.

Her usual threats of ruining your life were quickly seen through. Of coure she'd never actually send in a tip to Gossip Girl about you- she could never actually hurt you like that, even if it would be easier than letting you love her.

You were very determined on sticking around. In the mornings after sex, she always expected you to be gone, but you never were. You were cuddled up close, your head buried into the crook of her neck when you were still asleep and your drowsy eyes gazing down at her with a certain fond look when you were awake.

There was only one time when she woke up that you were gone, which made her sadder than she'd ever admit. Until the door to the bathroom opened and you reappeared, just as cheery as ever.

"Baby," you'd cooed out to her sweetly once you saw that she was awake, crawling back into the bed beside her and pulling her in close. "I missed you."

She tried everything to get you to want to leave, she really did. She kicked you out more than once, hooked up with past exes and made it well known to other people who asked, she even outright insulted you to your face. None of these things made you angry at her liked she'd hope, however. They just made you sad, and you being sad because of something that she did was like a stab to the heart.

It was hard for her to apologize in general because of the kind of person she was, but even attempting it was harder still due to your over protective friends, "The Non-Judging Breakfast Club". Ugh, just the thought of them crowding around you as you sought out comfort made her want to hurl. And it wasn't just because of the sappy image it placed in her mind, it was also because you were seeking comfort from them and not her.

Finally, after what seemed like ages of her texting and calling your phone only to be responded to by a very angry Blair, she managed to meet up with you. The mere sight of how heartbroken you look filled her with an emotion that she wasn't used to: remorse.

As soon as she uttered out those two small words of I'm sorry, you flung yourself forward into her arms and hid your face into her neck, muttering a soft I love you in reply.

Did she love you back? She wasn't entirely sure. She didn't really know what love felt like, but she assumed it was something similar to the way she felt when she was with you.

So against her better judgment, she said it back. I love you, too. And she did, she really did, even if she wasn't entirely aware of it.

End notes: I might make a longer, more indepth version of this at some point. I know this is pretty sort but I didn't want to lengthen it right now so 🤷

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[firesnap]

if you could recommend any and i mean ANY vod or video/vlog with wilbur, which one would it be?

-AlterEgo

I CANT DO THIS.

Am I recommending it because I want them to like Wilbur's content or because I want them to see how weird he is?

If I want them to like his content: I think you'd have to go with something music based because that's what 95% of his content is now. I also want to show off that he's a great streamer and his roots with that community so nothing that's JUST Lovejoy. I would go with the Your City Gave Me Asthma anniversary stream. It's touching, it's gentle, it managed to encapsulate the relationship he had with his streaming audience that had grown attached to that EP.

If want to just show off what a weird nerd he is:

I actually ended up having an indepth discussion with Laurel to figure out the answer if this is the criteria. We had a short list down to the the We Started A Cult Sorry video, the Ho16 livestream, and the YLYL with James Marriott youtube video (Laurel also argued for the stream with the New Zealand Hamilton reveal). They all highlighted different aspects of what makes Wilbur's brand of weird entertaining.

And in the end. After careful consideration, I have chosen the Zoo Tycoon video on his youtube channel. Yeah, that does seem fairly recent compared to a lot of his good work, but here's the thing... it sorta summarizes a lot of the vibe of his old content while showcasing Wilbur's very particular brand of unhinged. He named the animals strange things, killed dozens of people, screamed wildly and got invested in their sex lives. He forced Phil to watch him create a whole narrative around the Worst Zoo In The World and it wasn't even his stream.

[hisaribi]

on anon cause shy but 10/10 love love LOVED ur take on beta dick grayson holy shit ur so nuanced with it and use it to explore avenues of his character in such a meaningful way insane I love it sm <33 TOSS HIM INTO THE ANGST PILE, that was a treat to read :D

Just asking! No need for a full indepth response (unless you'd want to give that, that'd be amazing too!!!!!) but now I'm curious about a little bit more ahaha, how do you hc Jason? Because personally it's omega for me but that's largely due to how I perceive my ABO society and dynamics within it + discrimination + him fronting as an alpha as a kid, etc etc

So I was curious how It'd change or not in your ABOverse!

aww, don't be shy, I'm really happy you liked that! because like there were well 9 notes and I was a bit ah man we're in this alone again, so I'm really glad that you wrote to me! this post btw

also I have some more angst! like reverse robins would be angst with Dick being the youngest and also the only beta, but also Damian is gonna be really cool with him (even though he had to take him in after B disappeared, but because Talia is beta Dick would have like easier time adapting into the family), and also like overall Damian being like why do you all have problems with betas, my mother is one, will you dare say something bad about that, and ye. that can work even with normal Damian and Dick, because I guess Damian also had a hard time adapting to his father's pack, as he was used to betas being his pack and most likely los wasn't the nice place to explore your gender or even see that exploration, so ye, I digress

ok back on topic

I agree with you on omega Jason, actually. aside from him being omega is just funny for me (in a good way), and annoying for him, I also have sort of hcs about that. not specifically Jason, but you gave me a blanket permission for in depth response, so lol

when I usually talk about omegaverse, I prefer having omegas as bigger/taller ones, like, protecting pups and all that. also if we talk about physique I tend to believe that omegas gain fat easier (not as they're all on plump side, but like the protection thing again?), alphas gain muscles, while betas are somewhere in-between in a way.

So B is tall and clearly muscular, though he's an alpha, and Jason is also tall and muscular, but he feels bigger because of his body going like hey we had fucked up childhood, we need to save as much as possible, and he was annoyed about that. though ok, he was annoyed about everything, because he didn't present before dying, though he was aware he was either alpha or omega because of scents and all that

Jason did hope to be an alpha though, mostly because he grew up on the street and yes, omegas are discriminated, and mostly in bad ways, so him believing being alpha was more fitting and also gave him power, that was the thing. also like B was alpha, Alfred was alpha, pretty sure Diana was alpha as well, and I feel like making Jason's father an omega could also be factoring into that.

He also was very I'm still better than you about Dick being beta, again, till Talia, and he's probably on the betas are like children they don't have scent how can anyone /looks at Roy/ want them. it also makes him protective over betas just like it would over pups, so ye

I guess he can have a cool journey in accepting omega part of him and reconciling with it, probably after too many suppressants and dealing with his panic that his pack would reject him because he's omega and no of course the whole killing thing and pretending to be Nightwing and almost killing him and killing as him didn't happen what are you talking about, but I'm really not a gender person and I'm not willing to write about that(

sorry, ended up way too rambly, but ye, feel free to throw things at me about this whole thing

[paragonrobits]

Sorry if you’ve already made a post about this, but what do you think Marceline and Betty’s relationship would have been like (if they actually interacted much) We know that she’s able to envision her as a mother figure (the first coma dream in stakes) but do you think that would change if she and Magic Woman ever actually met?

I think it's possible, sure, but I also think it's liable to fall into one of the big things surrounding Betty with Simon in particular; wanting something that can never really happen is a tremendously appealing idea for people like Simon and Marceline?

Broadly I think there's a few different ways it could happen: 1. Betty winds up being more scared of Marceline than expected, forcing Simon to choose between the two (and arguably, he's spent more time and grown closely to Marceline and for drama I would have him side with Marceline in the end). 2. Betty winds up being a mother figure for her but probably more strict than Simon and potentially even dangerous in her own way as Magic Woman. 3. We get a similar situation to Ice King where she does grow to love Marcy but her inherent instability and swelling madness makes her actively dangerous to her. 4. like 3 except it winds up okay somehow, with Marceline, Ice King and Magic Woman managing to somehow salve each other's respective problems into something that's kooky but surprisingly functional.

Some more indepth thoughts:

So I consider there's a few likely things to happen in the circumstance that Betty is actually around Marceline and Simon for this. The first one is that Betty actually does become a mother figure to her; personally I find this pretty interesting given that Elise (Marceline's mom) was very close to Marceline and she misses her badly, but as that dream shows, she longs for a bigger family and certainly loves the idea of Betty in that part of her life. Notably, Simon is a little older there than he was biologically at that time; he's got crows feet, so its not implausible that this is Marceline imagining if they had raised her all her life.

However there's a recurring motif going on with Betty that is most obvious with Simon, but keeps coming up with people who know ABOUT her but haven't actually met her; that they project a lot of feelings towards her as the ideal loved one in a lot of ways. They're not wrong exactly, but come from a LOT of emotional distance and I think they ultimately are projecting a lot on someone they haven't actually met, or have known for a long time.

There is a term for this: loving a shadow. Basically its wishful projection. Character A projects onto the idea of loving Character B, fixating on the life they would have together, or grows attached to their assumptions of what it would be like to be with them in some form or another. Simon's relationship with Betty has EXTREMELY STRONG tinges of this to start; among other things, I think his character arc in Fionna And Cake has a lot of this going on; he fixates on the life they could have had together that he cannot bring himself to let go of it. And I think its quite likely to happen with Marceline imagining her as a mother figure.

Simon in particular suffers from this the most. He fixates heavily on Betty as his One True Happily Ever After; he longs for the life he imagines he would have had with her, he fixates on her to the point that even as Ice King he's attaching his buried attachment to her towards anyone that fits the princess description and implicitly Bubblegum, who has a LOT in common with Betty. Gunther in the crown even remarks about how Betty isn't much like he imagined her, so I think anyone who mostly knows about her from Simon are going to have a somewhat warped view of an ordinary woman who was somewhat impulsive and intellectually motivated, but wasn't the perfect ideal Simon thinks of her as. And this certainly would include Marceline!

After many years of separation and loneliness, Simon seems to, around the time he met Marceline, build up Betty into this ideal icon of the life he wanted and that was taken away from him. It's likely not one that has a lot of ties to reality; she could argue, or have normal disagreements, and certainly she might even have been scared of Marceline.

So here's the first possibility; they meet and Betty falls short of Marceline's likely very high expectations; she's a regular person, in the end, and can't possibly live up what Simon has come to think of her. Regular Betty would likely be scared of Marceline even as a child, as most people were until Ooo became increasingly more strange overall. If Betty was somehow around when Simon met Marceline, I think its likely she would be scared of her; whether this would be enough for her to leave Simon or being a bit slower to come around to Marcy are equally possibilities. If this is Magic Woman later on, bear in mind that Marceline is probably existentially terrifying; she's not just a vampirized demon, she also can eat your soul. It doesn't come up much because Marcy is the biggest sweetheart in the show despite her tough attitude, but Betty doesn't know that.

But what if Betty was able to move past that and see Marcy for the genuinely good and lonely person she is? This brings us to 2. Betty as one of Marceline's parents, and most likely the more strict one, though I would note that based on what we see of their domestic life, Betty is still pretty much a goofball; strict would be a relative measure.

As Magic Woman, this would become more pronounced, especially if she gets more unstable; she would likely be even more dangerous than Ice King, who is stil lfundamentally Simon and not that dangerous. He always holds himself back; Betty does not.

3 gives us a scenario where Magic Woman is trying to be a good influence in her life but immense magical power and the madness that comes with it are going to create problems; I can easily see Magic Woman being even more of a threat to Marceline, as noted above. This would also be most likely if it happened in the present day or if Betty gained magical powers while Marceline was a kid. For added drama, she could even start randomly lashing out of her in misplaced jealousy of Simon focusing on her.

4 is probably the best possible outcome where we have Magic Woman, Ice King/Simon and Marceline in a weird family relationship; the first two in full magically driven madness while still being good parents, in their own way, to Marceline. This honestly has a lot of potential and is even a big aspect of a few AUs I've been thinking about, though it is less inherently dramatic unless you assume there is a tipping point where someone does something to drive the others off, perhaps, but its equally valid to assume it just winds up stabilizing into a weird family.

[seth-shitposts]

Agent/Fulcrum/(Rebel/Captain) for the WIP game please tell me anything you want🩷

Seth💚: KRIFF YEAH *yanks Alex our from wherever the hell he is so he can answer this* ITS YOUR TIME TO SHINE AGAIN BUDDY-

Alex💙: where you get your energy from will forever remain a mystery to me. Fckin hell. Anyway.

Buckle up because this is a long one. You've given me permission to talk about one of the main things that has us so deep in this Fandom in the first place.

Mmmm cw, there's a chance I may touch on trauma topics. This character is just very important to me and he brings me much comfort so I enjoy pulling him through pain.

This is a WIP that we debatably have the most notes complied for (atm maybe challenged by The Aphelion Waltz). This is one that has been in our docs since half way through our watch of s3. Back in March? Despite it being one of the ones with the most notes thus far, it probably won't see the light of day for quite awhile. Not that I'm not motivated enough to work on it or make it a higher priority, but because of the amount of work that I want to dedicate to it.

Agent/Fulcrum/[Rebel or Captain] is to be a character exploration/expansion. In fact, I plan on making two versions of it.

The first will stick as close to Canon as possible (and abbiously it can't be 100%, but it's more of exploring Kallus’s Canon character development in an indepth way. See: since they didn't do it in Canon, I'm allowed to do it in fanfiction.)

The second will be more of,,, mmm how should I say... Unlimited exploration. Still following through what his possible full character development could be, but not limiting myself to strictly close to Canon. Ocs, characters that have never interacted in Canon having interactions, maybe scenes that felt too OOC for the first one to be added into here. And there might be a fee more versions along these lines as well, if I don't make them their own fics entirely.

But, as it stands, Agent/Fulcrum/Rebel will have two versions.

It will be a very long fic.

I plan on splitting it into three portions: as seen above. It will follow his character throughout Rebels as an ISB Agent and its unrelenting events on him, through his disillusionment and how he becomes Fulcrum ans his isolated developments, and then as a Rebel and his healing process.

There plans to be exploration as to what his background may have been (I'm sorry but no one can convince me that this man wasn't from the lower levels and that he wasn't groomed into joining the empire; in similar ways as the US has done to its own youth. And I am disclaiming that that doesn't free him from accountability for his own actions. Obviously.). Throughout the fic, there will be layout implanted as to his childhood/youth, his recruitment, his work under the empire up until the beginning of the story.

I'm very much thinking that the start of the story is going to take place at the same time as the beginning of Rebels.

The plan thus far is:

Agent s1e1-(post)s2e17 ---his disillusionment arc will fall in with the Fulcrum portion of the trilogy.

Fulcrum s2e17-s3e21

Rebel [or Captain] s3e21/22-s4e15 (maybe even continuing on a bit past so?)

I, personally, related to Kallus’s arc quite a bit. And I'm not going to lie, I despised his guts up through to somewhere early to mid s3. But seeing him put work into becoming a better person, into becoming the person he actually wanted to be, is what changed me. Seth started liking his character back during The Honorable Ones. I took a bit more,,, convincing. A big thing for me is that I despise empty apologies. I never want am apology, I want action. I want genuine attempt for change. And I saw that more during An Inside Man. More of Kallus’s changes and developments were being displayed and that's when I started opening up, but I needed more. If someone had told me upon starting Rebels that by s4e15 I was going to have a new top tier kin and that kin was fucking Kallus I probably would've straight up stopped talking to them unless they elaborated.

Since then, Seth and I have rewatched Rebels numerous times and there's been a multitude of things I've taken more notes on about his character. I want to expand upon that and explore his character more indepth. As well as explore his interaction with other characters on that same level. Dig deeper into just how he got to where he was on the begging of Rebels, and the growth he's had over the course of the show.

Part of the reason why this fic is going to take so long is because each portion is currently estimated to be the length of a book. And that's if I don't accidentally go over board. Which I probably will. We'll see.

Another reason is that I want to have a more indepth understanding of the Star Wars universe. And to do that, it will takes months of going through the content: Shows, movies, comics, novels- hell even reference books. For the work, I want Kallus to be deeply intertwined into this universe he's apart of. And I also wish to have a deeper, better understanding of all the characters that may have had an affect on Kallus’s character; even if indirectly. Then there's also learning more of the past and the society that came before him or that he grew up around in that would have the same type of affects.

I will be taking much liberty with the version closer to Canon verse, but I also want to balance with being as accurate as possible. This is very much a passion project.

I want to dig through the trauma and events and compliances that Kallus had during Agent, how he had been in a recurrent cycle of reliving or suppressing his own trauma. How he would have lashed out as a result. Go through and explore him seeing or doing things he doesn't agree with, but does because it's what needs to be done to achieve his goal. Surely the ends justify the means. Right? Yes, that's what he has been told since the academy. Through this portion, I will be fully exploring the environment of the empire. How it's unforgiving, but the "obvious" answer is if there's a problem, its not the fault of the empire, but of the individual. The conditional care will be explored, as well as how the empire may allow or even promote unhealthy habits for the sake of full dedication. How the empire will only meet the bare minimum needs, and how you have to do your part to earn the right to belong. And how this is the norm. It's every man for himself. Especially the higher in ranks you rise. The top scraps just as much as the bottom. And if you can't conform to the empire? Tough. You simply haven't tried hard enough. I will very much explore the effects of bare minimum needs barely needing met and being net conditionally affects how Kallus thinks and views the universe; as this is stated throughout the first portion of his character arc.

Then for Fulcrum, I want to dig into him doing what he's always done; throwing himself into the challenge. Zeb, as Seth so eloquently says it, "triple dog dared" him to chase the truth- a truth he surely has seen hints of, but probably turned a blind eye to. So upon being challenged, he does so and does so with full intent of being as thorough as possible. Maybe there's a part of him that still hopes that Zeb is wrong, but whether Kallus wants him to be wring or not, he is going to get to the bottom of it whether he likes it or not- and finds that he has committed and complied in acts he had liked doing for a lie. It's all been lies. He faces the truth, and even though it burns and its painful, he doesn't shy away from it. He submerges himself fully into it. Throughout Fulcrum, he faces his past, his own actions and choices. He takes accountability for them. Accepts that he did what he did and that he cannot change what has happened. But he can still change what will happen. There's still time for him to make a difference. There's still time for him to stop betraying his morals and himself. Kallus fully dedicates himself to helping the rebellion. Would he be accepted by them? Surely not. But that won't stop him from aiding them. Kallus avoids thinking about just how isolated he truly is now in favor for doing whatever he can to take advantage of the opportunity before him. It's during this time period where he throws himself into his work. He's accepted that he's done terrible things and that he has been compliant with atrocities against life. He doesn't shy away from that fact. Nor will it stop him from doing everything he can do do better now, to be better now. He finally accepts the fact that the empire isn't just cold, but its cruel and hostile, he has seen if for years but believed the lie that it was the fault of the individual. This part of his arc focuses on the acknowledged, and that he has started putting work into changing. He switches his allegiances and dedicates himself. But he still operated under certain mindsets he learned from the Empire. At this point, he is definitely changed, but definitely hasn't healed. He's very much under the impression for a long while as fulcrum that the rebellion wouldn't accept him. After what he's done, he knows he wouldn't. He makes peace with the fact that he's on his own. He constantly has to be on edge, if he slips up, the empire won't hesitate to snuff him out. And with the constant loom of someone like Thrawn, who is admittedly sharper than most of the empire, the psychological warfare keeps Kallus in a state of constant survival. He thinks he's made progress, but he isn't able to make healthy growth still trapped where he is. To keep himself going, he plans on simply staying in place to feed as much intel as possible to the rebellion until he is caught. He will then escape. The even if the rebellion doesn't accept him, he'll figure out his next plans when he gets there. Ezra infiltrating the empire sets kallus into a deeper sense of alarm, they could both be killed. How does he not see that. Kallus is shocked when he thinks Ezra is there to warn him. The rebellion cares enough to risk one of their top operatives to give him a heads up? And when Kallus gets told that it's actually an extraction, that is a complete game changer to Kallus in that moment. The rebellion is willing to risk so much for him. And while that fact alone overwhelms him, he has to think with a clear head. If the rebellion is willing to take such extreme risks for his life, then he needs to earn that, he needs to return the sentiment. "There's still more good I can do here." Kallus will take more risks, keeping the rebellion informed. And when he gets too close to being caught, he will jump ship. But not right now. Not yet. There's still good he can do where he is.

Rebel- throughout his time through rebel, he initially goes through the biggest culture shock for the second time in his life. There were many habits and work patterns he had done for the Empire that were praised upon that are reprimanded here. He's can't understand why they insist on giving him an abundance of meal items when it's more efficient to go with something smaller. He doesn't understand why there's a time cap on how many hours he's allowed to work. Everything in the rebellion is so different from the Empire. And on some level he had known that, but he didn't know it was this different. He knows that he wanted to be closer to those he worked along side, to be in that warmth, but he didn't realize that it would be this much. Immediately, he is welcomed with such an intense amount of care and compassion that it almost physically pains him. For the first few days he decides to isolate his work space. He wanted this, he does want this, but he doesn't understand it. So for the first few weeks he sticks to either the work he is allowed to do (at first he had thought that the limited amount of work was the rebellion testing to see what he could do and keeping an eye on him to see if he could be trusted. But then he was informed that no. That was the amount of work given to everyone), or speaks with the spectres. Familiar faces. Ones that he thought would be the last ones who wanted to speak to him, but one or more of them always sought him out. And he confides in them about his adjustment issues and how weird the rebellion is. Surely they also have some... no. It's just him. During this portion of the trilogy, With Kallus being given the space to thrive, he still struggles. And he gets frustrated over it in the beginning because he thought things would get better. He feels just out of place here as he had in the empire. But with his growing friendships with the ghost crew, he notices that there were a lot more flaws than he had initially acknowledged. So over the course of this portion, Kallus works on slowly submerging himself more in depth into unworking the careful wiring of the empire and focuses on healing in a more gentle way. But healing isn't always gentle and soft, and Kallus is reminded again just how much work there is for him to do on himself, how much that trauma needs more than just being acknowledged. Yeah, he hasnt forgotten the things that have happened to him or the things that he has done to others; and sure he has accepted his past and started ground work, but he hasn't gotten to the roots and untangled them. He tries to move forward, but feels like he's getting pulled back. He wants to enjoy the company of his nee friends, and sometimes he's able to, but then little sprouts creep up from the back of his mind. Sometimes he's able to ignore them. Sometimes they just get worse. He tries to fix this alone. Kallus feels that he has earned his right to fight in the rebellion, but has he earned the right to call the spectres his friends? ... Does he deserve to earn that right? Kallus battles back and forth as he tries to learn to let the spectres in. He tries to learn to accept their friendship.

Mmmmmmm I'm growing quite tired. Today was a long day. Let it be known nothing here is 100% set in stone, and that most of it I was pulling from memory. I haven't had the chance to even touch this WIP in a fre months and there's still much work to be done on it. I did really like have a chance to talk about it. I would chat more on it, but I already couldn't quite put into words exact what I meant or out of my own drowsiness may have just been rambling.

This fic does have a lot of work head for it. Seth and I are using some of our other fics to build skills or devices for it. To learn how to put certain aspects we want to write about into full affect by doing it on a smaller scale, going through periods of exploration.

I am always down for answering specific questions as best I can or am able to though, so don't hesitate to drop something in out inbox. These have been an utter thrill, honestly

Pls remember to hydrate and take care of yourself.

-Alex💙

[justalazytrashpanda]

if you don’t mind me asking, do you perhaps have a list of fangans that you like/are into and seen? And are we possibly allowed to make fangan recommendations? Just curious :0

Ahh sorry for the late reply!!! You are allowed to make recommendations but that doesnt guarantee that I’ll get into them. I dont have as much freetime as i used to im afraid… alas

Anywhere heres all the fangans ive gotten into ranked on a scale of 1-10, 1 being terrible, 5 being perfectly average, and 10 being the best thing ever written. If you want a more indepth opinion on any in specific just shoot me an ask X]. 

Complete fangans

Danganronpa another - 8/10, pretty good! Follows Trigger Happy Havoc a little closely in spots, but whenever it does that it’s trying to subvert whatever its mirroring in the first game. The cast is fun and bounces off eachother really well

Super danganronpa another 2 - 7/10, while it does improve in a lot of aspects when compared to the first game on both a technical and story level, I honestly preferred the first game to the second one. I was spoiled for most of the events in this game and the whole luck transfer thing was really convoluted. It’s still good tho! 

Danganronpa Lapse - 7/10, I really liked the unique artstyle, and the reduced cast allowed for everyone to shine a little bit more! The story was good as well, tho echos whole thing could’ve been explained more clearly. honestly this didn’t even need to be a Danganronpa game, it felt the weakest whenever it was trying to do that. Although I did enjoy the trials

In-progress fangans: have at least 2 chapters out

Danganronpa blowback: 6/10. Not the biggest fan tbh. It does have some cool ideas and characters but when it misses it misses hard. Granted this is one of the oldest fangans ive played, so some aspects can be forgiven based on that. I do wonder if it wouldve gotten better or worse had it gone on for longer

Danganronpa antebellum: 9/10. I had so much fun when playing this game its unreal. Its not perfect by a long shot, it definitely feels like a fangame, but thats whats so great about it. It doesnt take itself too seriously, which is an issue that can easily affect a fan project. The designs for the cast are super fun and i cant say that there's any characters i actively dislike. 

Danganronpa despair time: 9/10. Another really good one! It takes advantage of the medium its presented rather well. The story so far is really good and the parts “inspired” by the mainline games are changed up enough where it makes the tropes feel refreshing. I dont like all the characters but hey its rare to have an entire cast of faves

Just started fangans: only the prologue / first chapter is out

Project edens garden - 7/10. It’s got me hooked! I found the prologue very interesting. It set up the characters well and let them have a chance to shine while also setting up the main story. I found the animal theming interesting and am excited to see where it goes. I just also really like the art style. Each characters color palette is really distinct and i really like that :]

Danganronpa (he)artless deceit - 6/10. It’s alright. On a technical level it's very impressive, and it's clear the people making this really care about it! It just… didn't really click with me. A couple characters did interest me, but i wasn't very invested in the main two focused on in the proluge. I'll be interested to see where it goes but atm I'm more of an observer than a fan.

Danganronpa mauve - 5/10. I dont know what to think about this one. Its only got one chapter out so its hard to judge it, but it just didnt really captivate me all that much. Its clear a lot of work and time has been put into this, and i can totally see how someone could like this! Its just not my cup of tea X]. Out of every fangan ive seen this definitely feels the most like a danganronpa game, but thats a double edged sword. The characters were alright, but it felt… odd to me how many of them resembled characters from other fangans or the mainline series (looking at you satsuki). 

[namelessweapons]

@8luelight [Sorry I didn't wanna just hit reply on my cringemain failblog]

Under a cut bc I cannot shut up. And I want to make it clear that I am actually pissed on behalf of Psychkin too, but I can't talk about it, because I cannot relate to it, and I did not want to speak on something that is not my experience to speak on.

Honestly, and I mean this in the kindest way possible, because I do respect psychkin, they were not mentioned in the essay because, well, it has nothing to do with them, I had no thoughts on them because I wasn't thinking about them, because I am not one!

To go further indepth as to what I mean, I have a friend who I adore, they've got psych roots and spiritual roots, I will gladly listen to their psych stuff, but I cannot engage with it the way I can with spirituality because I am 0% psychological kin and ergo not only have no desire, but have no right to intrude on their spaces. I would be, and am, fine with them using the word Fictotheist, because they do also have spiritual roots. System stuff, to be clear.

If you're wondering what that means for the term 'Fictotheism', I have no issue with sharing it with people who are partially psych and partially spiritual, their experiences are still religious, however, it was not made with psychkin in mind, and if asked I would say;

'If your experiences aren't religious, if your existence isn't spiritual, why do you feel the need to use my word made exclusively to name a religion?'

I do consider the use of 'Fictionkin' for psych kin and spiritual kin alike part of the early 'muddying the waters' of the original word and I do wish that right out of the gate there had been another word, however, I also think 'Fictionkin' was always a word that was going to be muddied, it's ethereal, it has a thin sheetlike qualia too capable of covering too many things.

Again, I do believe they're valid, 100% so, those experiences are very real, but I have as much in common with psychological kin as a Catholic has with someone who likes the way communion wafers taste, {we're both freaks} no, that was a joke, but the actual answer is 'we have nothing in common, other than eating communion wafers' which does not a religion make, the communion-wafer eater doesn't care what church their communion wafers come from, nor their relationship to the Body of Christ, it is not a Religious Experience, I will gladly be friends with someone who's favorite snack is Communion Wafers, but I would also politely recommend they get their Communion Wafers off amazon instead of showing up to Friday Mass to interrupt the preacher to ask for more Communion Wafers.

So I suppose the short version of my opinion is, I respect Psychkin, I think it's very real, it's a real experience, who the fuck am I to tell someone what's real? I think they should be defended, I even think they deserve a new word too because honestly I feel like 'fictionkin' has been muddied for them too, and I hate that, like I hate it as much as I hate having my original word taken from me, it isn't fair, if someone makes a word just for them, I will signal boost the fuck out of it immediately.

But the word I created was not made to include them, and it was on purpose.

[skeletonsfortea]

Hello! I'm new to your Tumblr! I noticed you wrote that there are some scenes that didn't make it into your stories and I wanted to know what they were about? :)

Hello and welcome!

Well, near the beginning of Nothing but Skin and Bone, before I was completely sure about who was going to end up breaking the barrier, or who would be the new ruler, I wrote a scene with the context that the monsters' integration was controlled by humans. They were all packed up in a camp for a very, very slow integration where they would need to go through all these loopholes to get citizenship...anyway, in said scenes, Y/N was going to make a deal with one of the guards to make the process for Sans and Papyrus’s integration to go a little quicker…but the brothers had different ideas of how to do things ;)

Heh, sorry for the long answer, I wasn't sure how indepth to go, lol

[thomasjrs]

You know. I never meant to judge you or came off as that. That wasn't my intention. I was only telling you the truth. Like how you told me the truth. You got upset defensive with me as I kinda did with you at first in the beginning til I accepted it and began to weep & express it out as a poet does,(poets also have strong actions that match their words because they are their words if only giving a chance) but I was listening to you. I may text read slow, but I don't talk slow, lol, and I was replying to you, and I'm sorry. I didn't mean to judge or be mean that's not me. I just don't like saying I'm bleeding all over cause I'm not it's just hard when you don't have someone for encouragement & support someone to have indepth talks with even debates but respectfully agreeing to disagree. Still being just as close if not closer. It's the differences that make people unique together, maybe with the same likes, movies, seasons, etc, but always that open honesty respect & encouraging love & support. I am sorry for me causing you to hang up & how it went, etc. I just like you, so I want you to know the truth. So your soul is saved because you're a unique, indepth sweet person that I like to see if not this life the next which is eternal spiritual of the soul of light of love of something beyond our comprehension. I'm telling you the truth. Please forgive for being that way coming off like that dint want no harsh feelings or anything negative bewteen us just misunderstandings & being adults to agree to disagree say sorry but to forgive eachother really forgive. move on stronger together more understanding of eachother which is a beautiful thing. And how relationships should be. Each having eachother in support. She's his anchor & he's her rock & together they are a beacon light house shing off their love their light their flame of being one with eachother in all that splendor love and beauty of vulnerability bewteen two beings bewteen two souls bewteen two hearts. Such a magical essence a magical feeling of healing love brings bewteen two honest open souls & hearts. And to not run away not talk about but embrace it together respectfully in understanding for eachother of honor strength & unity of being stronger together even in our weakness, but that's what makes it stronger. Her weakness becomes his strength on embracing hugging loving weeping holding listening talking her as she does him together a magical thing takes place a true love of support commitment community respect honesty openess tone to just listen to understand or to know better to talk about it respectfully madly inlove because that's how it should be. A real comforting warmth of love. A love that grows & a love made just for them a healthy healing infepth passionate burning love a connection beyond words beyond our comprehension a soulful love

[minetteskvareninova]

hi!! i love your blog, i spent a hell of a lot of time just reading your posts, and you're hilarious. i would like to hear your indepth thoughts about selim? (both historical and mc). he's my fave and i'm weirdly protective of him cause of the way he's villanized lol

Thank you so much! I absolutely love hearing that my posts made someone laugh!

I am afraid I don't remember the details of show!Selim's characterization enough to go as in depth into his character as you would probably want me to. Sorry if this post is going to be overly general! I am currently in the process of rewatching this show, so it's possible I will change my mind or at least amend my opinion on some things. I am also not the meta guy in this fandom, and I usually don't write super long, deep posts (at least about MC/MCK). With that said, I will try to give as much of my thoughts on Selim II as possible.

Historical Selim was in general an interesting figure, because of how unimpressive he was - not at all like his extremely competent (whatever else you might think about him) father, but also in comparison to the Caligula that some portray him as. Yes, he was an alcoholic, hedonist and not interested in ruling once he became a sultan (as a young prince, he allegedly wasn't as apathetic towards his duties). At the same time, he was a relatively nice guy, at least by the standards of the Ottoman dynasty.

My biggest problem with the show!Selim from the historical perspective is that he's too much of an asshole? Not that hating Bayezit and plotting against him is out of character, but the rest of his characterization should be softened considerably. Also, again, he wasn't known for drinking in his youth, and it's possible he started as a way of dealing with the trauma of his brothers dying - but that's more of my headcannon. Overall, historical sources point to a more complicated person that changed over time, where the show... Doesn't really.

I think the "nice and personable guy" characterization would go a long way to bridge the gap between him and his brothers - which is important, because Bayezit and Mustafa are portrayed as not just better future rulers (which, fair, especially with Mustafa), but more importantly better people. Compared to them, Selim has very little redeeming qualities, which creates a disparity between them that just... Feels unfair. It veers into unfortunate implications territory when you consider one of Selim's failings in the show is his insufficient bravery and martial prowess, and that he's the one whose wife has the most influence over him (although to be fair, Mihrunissa is also politically active, and overall the sheer number of women interested in politics in the show muddies the waters somewhat). @hurrcmhaseki is even more passionate about this aspect of the show than me.

My overall feelings on his portrayal in the show are negative, but I don't hate everything about it. The show at least tries to make Selim somewhat sympathetic at times, especially with his relationship to siblings that aren't Bayezit, and also his romance with Nurbanu, which... Well, I don't want to say is completely devoid of toxicity, but compared to Süleyman and Hürrem feels much healthier and more equal. I don't like Nurbanu as a character either, but I do love them together most of the time!

I will say this - I have seen worse, MUCH worse. The fact that show!Selim is still somewhat bearable is a testament to how good the writing in season 4 is: even when the writers don't like a character, they would never resort to making them completely one-dimensional.

[moralina]

Hi! I loved the ship that you did, it was really well written and the moodboard was gorgeous! I was wondering if I could please get one as well? Please feel free to ignore this though! I'm a straight female, she/her and I'm 20!

I'm fairly introverted and it takes me a while to warm up to people. I love reading, my room is filled with stacks of books. I especially enjoy true crime, poetry and Russian literature! I adore adventures, witty and playful banter, joking around and having indepth discussions on anything and everything. I love helping out and I'm the therapist friend, people come to me to vent or for advice and comfort. I'd consider myself really smart and I'm very ambitious; I love being the best at everything I do. I daydream a lot and I'm a hopeless romantic, I love being in love! I enjoy all forms of art and I have quite a few creative hobbies! I'm 5'9 and I have long and curly dark brown hair and brown eyes. I dress mostly in relaxed suits, blazers and coats and I love the occasional dress or sweaters layered over a white button down!

Thank you very much! I'm sorry for the bother <3

Hey it's no bother! I enjoyed doing this, but sorry for the time it took me lmao, I'm very slow and it was a crazy week for me 🥲

The moment you said you love being in love I had to choose Steve.

I see him as someone who gives his all in a relationship and cherishes his partner as much as he can. He has learned a lot from a previous relationship we don't really talk about that shh so loving someone and having someone who loves him the same feels refreshing - but also scary.

And that's why you say you love him every single day of your lives together. Even if he doesn't say it, we know Steve needs a lil reassurance once in a while, so you make sure to show him your affection first thing in the morning.

I also see you being besties with Dustin and Steve jealous you stole his best friend. Dustin is very easy to trust and out of all the kids he's the sweetest to you.

Steve: "Hey where are you two idiots going?"

Dustin: "To Starcourt. We're gonna watch the goonies!"

Steve: "Without ME???????????"

I feel like you're the one planning dates. Like, steve loves to be the one to plan them but your dates are just more fun, like not just going to a restaurant, y'know?

He tries to get into poetry because he wants to see why you're so obssesed with all those books you won't shut up about, and poetry seemed like the easiest to get into. Plot twist, it wasn't

You definetly became friends through Robin. I think at first it'd be akward between you two because Steve used to be an asshole back in high school. But hey, he's a new man now and let's be honest, it's impossible not to fall face first in the ground for him.

He knows you're ambitious and wants great things for your future. So that's definitely something to talk about. He's ready to move to the other side of the globe for you, like c'mon, it's Steve we're talking about.

The 6 kids thing is definitely something to discuss about, but maybe we could leave that to a future conversation lmao.

A/n: anon, i hope you're there somewhere reading this, because it's been a while and I'm not sure you remember sending this ask to me lmao. Sorry, love u <3

The moodboard looks weird on my phone... i really need to fix my laptop help

[dojae-huh]

I'm still learning abt Jaedo from a perspective outside twt, even tho I've been a fan from Limitless and shipping Jaedo from that time. I've always been affected by comments like "there's no way they are dating fr", "it's all fictional", so on. I've known abt your blog for some time but wasn't sure if I should come. Umm...I don't mean to offend you or anyone here. I believe some shippers (me as well) are ironically scared to believe in our own ships fr cus we don't wanna be called delusional. It's that contradicting feelings btw wanting to believe and being scared of delulu accusations and ruining idol's supposedly straight image, when it's actually not normal and weirder if all idols are straight.

That's why I'm trying to educate myself more. I've read the important posts from the beginning like the timeline and indepth discussion posts and wanna thank you for your refreshing and openminded perspectives.

I still have a few questions. I'm still trying to understand some behaviours of the members and Kfans. Sorry if you already answered but I somehow missed out.

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- Maybe I just don't have this kind of flirty friends but I'm genuinely confused and curious how Ten could tell his fan during fansign that his and Jaehyun's recent dinner was "honeymoon". Also Johnny's flirty comments on Doyoung's Insta. I personally find it's weird to talk to and talk about your friend's bf like that. Ten and John should know abt Jaedo too and this is not like those times the company wants to push other ships in formal content and asks idols to do some fanservice.

On the other hand I do know people have different personalities (John and Ten are also very naturally flirty and love fanservice) and some friends are very comfortable like that. You also wrote before that Jaehyun's jealousy is now toned down, tho you observed before that he can get moody and Johnny's not good at reading his reactions. Also, Doyoung's not the jealous type but I'm still like, that's weird to do if Jaedo are dating? Your Jaedo relationship timeline and many of the explanations make sense and we also have other members' reactions to Jaedo when they are in their own world, on top of Jaedo's very own behaviours. I'm just taken aback by this (minor?) detail and wonder if you or anyone can confirm it's normal for very flirty friends?

- This is more for Insider @.@ anon if you're still around:

I do think the way you talk seems credible and many explanations made sense too but I'm caught by some details again. From your ask on Oct 17 in 2020, you said you met Sungchan in a club "last year" so that should be 2019. Frankly, I don't know enough about SK but if you met him, who was born in 2001, in a club in 2019, wasn't he still underage? (18 internationally and 19 in SK) I read somewhere that Koreans can enter clubs after they are 20? I don't mean to be rude and pls correct me if I'm wrong about SK law but I'm rlly curious.

You also talked abt some inner circle fans who know abt Jaedo and would do anything to prevent their info and photos from circulating on the internet. But we still have loads of K-Jaedo shippers (since they are among the top 3 ships in SK) who went as far as investigating the hotel room in Jaehyun's vlog and fangirl over them all the time. If it's true, why don't the inner circle fans have those accs reported or their tweets deleted? Or are these things not as "solid" as fanaccs and photos from Jaedo's outings?

Or: those Kshippers do know/has heard about Jaedo but they intentionally sensor themselves about the outings? Do they only talk about moments in content and events and their own speculations for less "solid" issues?

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These are genuine questions and I have no intention to offend anyone. Pls think of me as someone who just wants to be enlightened and clear up some confusion.

Waves to Insider anon.

I'm surprised more people are questioning lighthearted flirty comments on official social accs and not Tae straddling Do or Do pinning him to a wall during practice. When Jae commented on Johnny's vlive he also *flirted*, praised the hair and such.

127 neos live together, they have their own rapport and jokes. There is some lack of sensitivity at times, but it's Jae's task to talk if something is bothering him.

It's not exactly related, but professors in Russia can hug their female students without asking. It would be sexual harrasement in USA, but here it's a greeting/farewell. The point is, don't judge by your own norms. Look if the people excibiting the behaviour are OK with it themselves.

One of the "fun" games Thai guys play I know of is trying to touch each others genitals. Jokes about sex (turning everything into innuendo) or stories about going to toilet and having diarrea are abundant. JaeTen are close, Do had to come between them once when the two pretended to bond and kiss (Life in Chiangmai). Maybe Ten joked about the honeymoon, because he was a bit petty about Do not reconciling with him, maybe it was just usual playful Ten with no mouth filter and him being glad he spent some time with long time friend he rarely sees.

Both JaeDo have problems understanding Johnny's humour, but Do tries to meet him half way. I don't remember if it's a Japanese or a Korean manga/manhwa trope, when if a foreigner (or a native who grew up abroad) kisses on the cheek it's forgiven coz foreigners are more outgoing and don't know "Asian modest ways".

DoTae, JaeTen, JohnDo were friends before JaeDo became official. Friends are not that happy to hand completely their pals to bfs or stop showing routine affection and can want to "claim" back in minor ways.

[sunflower-aurora]

Hello how are you doing?

🌜

Does ET, F, SG or E have feelings for me? Sorry for any confusion I’m poly if you’re wondering why I’m asking about different people.

Thank you in advance!

R.

As this is a one card reading it might not be specific.

Your Reading:

It looks like you are having some struggles with something, or someone. You rethink your choice in partner, or partners if it's more than one in the group you're interested in.

I needed a clarifier card, and pulled the 5 of Wands indicating whatever is happening is bringing unhappiness, and possible conflict. Again, this wasn't all too specific, but I hope it helped.

My advice: Open communication is VITAL, especially in poly relationships. If anyone doesn't like open communication, regardless of how you feel for them, cut them out.

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